I need you to listen to the words I won't speak.

I want you to know that I am here, I am right fucking here and I am sorry for never saying to words you were always waiting to hear.

Take my breath

For my favourite person, Olivia.

Serene.

I find it so peculiar the way that the most trivial and surprising people can change your life entirely when you least expect it. On Saturday night I found myself lying on the couch folded up under a blanket next to a new friend that had come and rescued myself and my friend in our stranded states. Maybe it was the silent vows that were exchanged that night while your arms wrapped me like ribbon or maybe it was the way that the moonlight shone on your face at 3 in the morning. I wasn't aware that I was searching for someone that would let me know that things were going to be okay, nor did I expect to discover it that night. But right in that moment, in that pitch black noise, whispers rose from your chest promising me things that we don't have words for yet, promising hope. I don't need perfect and I don't need promises made on days that may never come, I just need something that fits all my gaps, something that overrides this vastness in my head. Even if nothing ever comes of this, you gave me all sorts of hope, and that's more than I ever would've dared asked for. 

Marry me outside by the willow tree

Day 6 - A Song that reminds you of somewhere

Postcards From Italy - Florence and the Machine

And I will love to see that day
That day was mine
When she will marry me outside by the willow trees
And play the songs we made
They made me so
And I would love to see that day
Her day was mine

It reminds me of spending every night with my best friend Jamie, eating grilled fish and drinking lukewarm vodka as the heavy summer breeze kissed our skin. It reminds me of a time when things seemed of a more simple nature, reminds me of being with a man who changed my world more than I knew possible. This song is my summer 2010/2011.

Please don't say we're done when I'm not finished

Day 5 - A song that reminds you of someone

Heart Skipped A Beat - The XX

It's been a while
And you've found someone better
But I've been waiting too long to give this up
The more I see, I understand
But sometimes, I still need you

And I was struggling to get in
Left waiting outside your door
I was sure
You'd give me more

No need to come to me
When I can make it all the way to you
You made it clear
You weren't near
Near enough for me

This song never fails to remind me of my ex-boyfriend and good friend K. It's about an hours drive to his house or a considerable train trip after work and I would always listen to The XX album on my way. I quickly fell in love with this song, which, little did I know, would ironically and precisely chronicle our relationship. Perhaps that is why it ended up such a solid memory.  

The ones we left behind

Day 4 - A song that makes you sad

Santa Monica Dream - Angus and Julia Stone

I'm singing songs about the future
Wondering where you are
I could call you on the telephone
But do I really want to know?
You're making love now to the lady down the road
No I don't, I don't want to know

A song of a bitter heartbreak of a love that once was, reflecting on the future that was planned upon. I guess it's all a little bit raw for me, which pertains to the reason it change my entire mood within a heart beat. Another magical song by two beautiful souls.   

Stay with me

Day 3 - A Song that makes you happy

Beautiful Girl - INXS & JD Fortune  

I can't even explain the chills and goosebumps that this song has always given me! Such a well written and beautifully played song that has never failed to alter my mood up a notch.