Reality is

I tell myself that it is okay to be scared, in fact I used to say that I needed more things that scared the hell out of me. When you are scared, truly scared, it means that you are afraid of losing something that is of value to you, whether it be a person, an object or even your dignity. And so I find myself scared everyday that I am going to ruin whatever this is, whatever we are... And today I realized just how lost I would be if I were to loose you, and I suppose that answered my questions. I don't know if I'll ever be used to living in the shadow of fear.