Day Three

DAY 03: THE FIVE SONGS YOU WOULD HAVE WITH YOU ON A DESERT ISLAND AND WHY?

1. Skinny Love - BonIver: Simply because it's my all time favourite song, so beautiful and it's also the song that I share with an unforgettable person at an unforgettable time. Plus BonIver is one of those groups you can listen to limitlessly and not grow tired of. ♥

2. For Blue Skies - Strays Don't Sleep: To remind me of why I couldn't give up, even through the toughest times.

3. Paper Aeroplane - Angus and Julia Stone: For personal meaning of the song, loving someone you can't and being to afraid to deal with it, but leaving it to chance. I think if things are meant to happen, they will. Which fits the situation fairly well.

4. Better Together - Jack Johnson: Because it's such a chillout song, with such a beautiful message arranged in amazing melodies, well done!

5. I'm Not Calling You a Liar - Florence + The Machine: Never succumb to deception, even though love permits. It's important to remain true to yourself, plus the song is brillant and would make me estatic on an island.

Nothing is Forever

Today is enough. You don’t need forever and always. You don’t need promises of days that never come. Today is enough, you don’t need the words that cannot possibly be true. Nothing is forever. Nothing lasts for always. Today should always be enough.

Day Two

DAY TWO - SOMETHING THAT INSPIRES YOU

Although it may seem odd, photographs inspire me. Whether it be an image of a place, or raw emotion or the simplist of beauties; photographs inspire me to work harder, be better and act stronger. They make me determined to visit some beautiful place or feel a certain emotion. Conversly if a picture betrays famine or a horror of today's society, it makes me want to make a difference, speak out and raise awareness for those who can't raise awareness for themselves. I think photographs have shaped my life in more ways than I could count, I think they communicate with their own language, far beyond anything we can recognize and put into words.

Day One

DAY 1: GUILTY PLEASURE

Hmm, a guilty pleasure for me would honestly be a little bit of gossip. I know how horrible that sounds, but I suppose that's why it's called guilt. Finding out a few secrets here and there definitely makes life that little extra pleasurable.

A Thirty Day Blogspot Challenge.

For the next thirty days I intend to share and find out the following things about myself, enjoy!



Day 01 - Guilty pleasure
Day 02 - Something that inspires you
Day 03 - The five songs you would have with you on a desert island and why
Day 04 - What you imagine paradise to be like
Day 05 - A thank you letter to someone who has changed your life
Day 06 - Earliest thing you can remember
Day 07 - Favorite cover of your favorite song
Day 08 - Someone you think would make a good president
Day 09 - Five things you want to see change
Day 10 - A dream you had this past week described in detail
Day 11 - Favorite picture ever taken of yourself
Day 12 - Your favorite musical artist’s life story
Day 13 - A memory that never fails to make you laugh
Day 14 - Best mashup you’ve ever heard
Day 15 - A moment, phrase, or song that has changed your life the most
Day 16 - Something that you want to do within the next five years.
Day 17 - What you want to remembered for.
Day 18 - A picture that makes you feel
Day 19 - A passage from a book that has touched you
Day 20 - A band that you immediately liked and the song that made you like them
Day 21 - Your favorite medium of art.
Day 22 - Someone you would give your life up for without question.
Day 23 - Most awkward first impression you feel you’ve ever given
Day 24 - Something you did as a child that other people remember you for.
Day 25 - Something you would do if no one stopped you or if you knew you wouldn’t fail.
Day 26 - Your definition of love.
Day 27 - Your definition of the meaning of life.
Day 28 - A moment you remember being completely happy in and a description of why you believe you were. What is your definition of happiness
Day 29 - What you live for.
Day 30 - Ways you believe you have grown over the past thirty days

For Your Consideration

"Cherish your solitude. Take trains by yourself to places you have never been to. Sleep alone under the stars. Learn how to drive a stick shift. Go so far away that you stop being afraid of not coming back. Say no whenever you don't want to do something. Say yes to your instincts even if everyone around you disagrees. Decide whether you want to be liked or admired. Decide if fitting in is more important than finding out what you're doing here. Believe in kissing."
--Eve Ensler

Snap Decisions

There is only so much solitary I can take, just like there are only so many lies I can forgive and only so many betrayels I can see past.
Sometimes I question whether any of this is worth it at all... And to be completely honest, I think that is one of the fairest questions I've asked in a long time.

Feelings over Thoughts

“For me, it was a bottle of Strawberry Kiwi Arbor Mist because when you are twenty, this is the solution to every problem. I was freshly dumped and I drank the whole thing in my bathtub. Eventually the water grew cold and I got out, wrapping myself in loose bedsheets. I dripped into my living room and onto my couch. It had been two weeks and I still wasn’t sure how to be alone. I turned on the tv and went through every channel and eventually made my way through the movie channels to find Hannah and Her Sisters playing. It was just at the part of Mickey and Holly’s first date and I laughed as he asked her whether she had a kilo of coke in her purse. I pushed my wet hair behind my ears and watched as Mickey and Holly met again unexpectedly and things were easy. They just were, if you will. You’d never think that it would be that easy, especially for these two, but it is. That guy I was drinking mom wine over didn’t leave me because I worried too much, he left because things weren’t right. I got it then. Life was too short to be with someone who wasn’t quite right, someone who made you think more than they made you feel.”


If only someone had told me this a year ago, told me this exact statement and assisted to me to make sense of all those things that didn't quite manage to make sense of themselves. If only I had known that feeling love, or even hatred for someone was so much more vital than what you thought because of that person. Someone quote has managed to pat out a lot of bumps and bruises in my mind and joint all the loose, scragely ends that have twisted themselves in my head.
Once again, lost source, will update once found.

This Kind of Love

"I used to look at her feet and think she always picked the perfect nail polish. Staring at her jaw line and her eyelashes she was exactly how I always pictured my girlfriend to look. Flipping her hair to one side, her mouth half open she looked up from her book, paused and said with a snip, "what!?!" "I'm just looking." I countered, startled I was caught in mid-lurker gaze. Truth is, I wanted her to notice because I was too much of a pussy to look at her head on for any other reason. This is the moment that I remember. The moment that was the most intense. The moment both of our faces looked at each other head on. The drives, the movies, the sex…you never realize just how rare it is to have two people look directly at each another. I took advantage of the moment; I breathed in her exhale and felt the swoon they speak of in books. Like your hair is slowly melting across your forehead causing your eyes to close and your chin to lift. God himself couldn't envision anything so pristine. She was made for forehead kisses. She was made to accentuate reflected light. She was made to float when she walked. She was made good. Good enough to love someone who didn't deserve her love. She was made for me."

I swear, if anyone ever wrote something half as beautiful to me, I'd be their's forever! ♥
Note: I've misplaced the source where I found this quote, will update when found.

Wanted: A Regained Independence

I need to relocate my independence that has seemingly gone astray. Since when did I need anyone else to make me feel complete? And it is only recently that I have accepted the fact that this is what I have become. So instead of hopping from one person to the next and leaning my worries and dilemmas on them, I am once again going to stand on my own two feet like I once admired myself to do and face this big bad world without the need to have a boy to hold my hand. I have been fine up until this dependable state I've recently collapsed into... and I will be fine once again. Mark my words

Left to Linger

"'Do you wanna run away together?'; I would say it was your best line ever, too bad I fell for it...
And I walked along, waiting for you to come along, take my tortured heart by the hand and write me off. I'm tired of hiding behind these lying eyes. I'm tired of this smile that even I don't recognize.

You know I cry, and it's not the good kind"

-The Good Kind

I'm Nowhere

Today, I found myself with this overwhelming need to make a decision, like I should be spending my time weighing out all these various options that seem to be throwing themselves at me and make some sort of a solid decision.

When did being eighteen become so difficult? When did being a girl become such a dramatically draining experience? When did boys become so horribly complex? And lastly, when did this world become so, so cold; regarding not only the temperature, but also emotions.

Honestly, how can I be urged to make a decision when my options are tugging me in all sorts of direction? I'm treading in deep water and I'm crossing my cold, scared fingers for a lifeboat to come rescue me sometime soon because I can't find a way out.

I Need Closure

"I always wondered why birds choose to stay in the same place, when they can fly anywhere on earth. Then I began to ask myself the same question."
—Best of the best

A Sigh of Relief

It's not what I feel for you that scares me, but what I have never felt for anyone else.
Someone once said to me that life is only stressful when you can't let go of your problems... and so the last option has been drawn from the deep, deep hat.

Thank you for the best and worse twelve months of my life. You are my mistakes made and my lessons learnt, my comfortable silence and my final straw.

With that, there is nothing left to say on the matter ♥

Forgiveness

For almost a year now, I've blamed you for ruining my life, for letting me fail what I'd worked 13 years for, loosing my best friend and most of all loosing myself. I tried to convince myself that it was easier to hate you than to love you although it took so, so much effort.

However, two days ago you opened my eyes and I saw for the first time that this was not an easy ride for you either... You lost yourself and relied on me to help you find it when all I helped you do was bury yourself further.

For so long I was convinced that you were the bad person in all of this; that you were the reason everything went wrong and we got so hurt. But now I see, this is all very much my own fault and I could never tell you how truly sorry I am.

Home, is wherever I'm with you

Alabama, Arkansas, I do love my ma and pa, not the way that I do love you.

Holy moley, me oh my; You're the apple of my eye, Girl I've never loved one like you.

Man oh man, you're my best friend, I scream it to the nothingness, There ain't nothing that I need.

Well, hot and heavy, pumpkin pie, Chocolate candy, Jesus Christ, Ain't nothing please me more than you.

Ahh Home. Let me come home, Home is wherever I'm with you.

Ahh Home. Let me go ho-oh-ome. Home is wherever I'm with you.

La, la, la, la, take me home. Mother, I'm coming home.

I'll follow you into the park, Through the jungle through the dark, Girl I never loved one like you.

Moats and boats and waterfalls, Alley-ways and pay phone calls, I've been everywhere with you.

We laugh until we think we’ll die, Barefoot on a summer night, Nothin’ new is sweeter than with you.

And in the streets you run afree, Like it's only you and me, Geeze, you're something to see.

Him: Jade

Her: Alexander

Him: Do you remember that day you fell outta my window?

Her: I sure do, you came jumping out after me.

Him: Well, you fell on the concrete, nearly broke your ass, you were bleeding all over the place and I rushed you out to the hospital, you remember that?

Her: Yes I do.

Him: Well there's something I never told you about that night.

Her: What didn't you tell me?
Him: While you were sitting in the backseat smoking a cigarette you thought was gonna be your last, I was falling deep, deeply in love with you, and I never told you til just now.

Ahh Home. Let me go home. Home is wherever I'm with you.

Ahh Home. Let me go ho-oh-ome. Home is where I'm alone with you.

Home. Let me come home. Home is wherever I'm with you.

Ahh home. Yes I am ho-oh-ome.

Home is when I'm alone with you.

-Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeroes

Clairebee ♥

Clairebee, this lovely little creature of whom I get the privledge of being a best friend.

Today, we discussed our world trip we are going to concur in 2012. I can honestly say that there is not one other person in this world that I would like to scour this world with. So far I have about 20 countries I want to adventure without adding on the additionals from her list. From campervans to tent camps to hotels and hostels... we are going to have an experience that is indescribable.

I have yet to decide whether I'll be obesely fat from the ridiculous amount of food we consume together, or have a six pack of beautiful abs from the laughing fits we manage to find ourselves in each time we are in each others presence.

Either way, this is the most beautiful girl and we are about to embark on such an amazing journey with gondelas, yellow taxi cabs, funny looking guards at the tower of London and villas on the white stones of Santorini.

The horizion is looking suddenly brighter!