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Day One: Ten Things You Want To Say To Ten Different People

BenC: Thank you for becoming one of the biggest parts of my life this year. You make me immensely happier than I ever knew I could be. You have been there for me every single day for the last few months and put up with a lot more horrible moods and tantrums than I would expect of anyone. You pulled me out of a pretty damn dark place, and for that I will never be able to thank you enough. It amazes me that I still get goosebumps every time you touch me, despite the fact you haven't let me go for a while now, but I couldn't ever imagine not feeling this way about you. I'm pretty certain you know, but you have my heart and I wouldn't want it any other way. You make me feel pretty god damn lucky which is why I let you drive me crazy and make me your girl ♥

BillC: People say this gets easier; people lie. I miss you everyday and it's not getting any easier at all.  Life is short, I've finally learnt it. I know you are partying with all the great music gods, but I would trade anything to have you back. I love you so much and I know you are watching over us. Rest easy ♥

CM: It scares me that I barely know you at all anymore.

OM: I do not deserve to have someone so brilliant in my life. You inspire me to be more and to try harder. Thank you for never letting me settle with second best.

SF: Who would have known we would be us again? You make me laugh every single day, all day. You're happiness is more infectious than anything I know. Keep shining, this world needs people like you! Thank you for never allowing me to have a dull moment, keeping me happy and making up crazy joint names for us. Cannot wait to conquer the world with you!

RD: You and ED picked me up this year when I fell to pieces and I'll never explain the gratitude I have for you. You are the kindest, gentlest person I know, who has never failed to be there for me, whether it has been drunken times, tears or gashes, you truly are one of a kind. I'm so lucky to have you.

ED: See above with RD. You listen to me every day talk about my plans, problems and happiness. You give good advice and let me talk it out. There are so few people with such a considerate heart around and I was fortunate enough to stumble upon you. You've always been there when I've needed you and like you said, we were meant to be friends ever since that camping trip a few years ago! Fate.

PatE: I never meant to hurt you. You have the kindest heart and you are going to make someone so happy one day and I cannot wait to see the smile this girl puts on your face! Do not give up.

SylA: I don't think I will ever forgive you, despite my attempts. In fact, I pity you for all the hurt you caused. Stop preaching to people and start facing your own truths. You hold the ugliest personality I've ever known.

JR: I was right all along. Thank you for teaching me the most valuable lesson of my life and wasting time for two years. Trust none.

Warning

I am about to start another 10 day challenge. I did one at the same time last year and similarily the year before and I love looking at the changes that I have made in my life.
For those whose dashboard's I am about to clog, I am sorry.
Enjoy!

I'm Back!

Firstly, I apologise for my absence over the last month. My blog, along with many other things in my life that I adore have been sadly abandoned by me due to travelling through Europe over the last month. Whilst this might seem entirely selfish, it's something you need to do.

 In brief, I visited the following places;
-London, England
 -Dover, England
 -Calais, France
-Belgium
-Amsterdam, Netherlands
 -Rhine Valley, Germany
-Munich, Germany
 -Innsbruck, Austria
-Venice, Italy
-Rome, Italy
-Florence, Italy
 -Lucerne, Switzerland
-Paris, France
 -And lastly, back to London, England.

 It's funny, how much you can pack into a month and how incredibly your life can completely change. I guess this is why travelling is such an impacting experience. You learn exactly what matters and what doesn't, and when you do a trip like the one that I did, you are forced to learn a lot more about yourself, even some things that you might not want to know.

 November has been the biggest journey for me so far and I believe that it is impossible for me to go back to the person I was before I experienced what I have in this time. From sex shows in Amsterdam to Concentration Camps in Germany, my eyes were opened so widely to this beautiful yet trecherous world that we are in. It is so easy to become captivated in our everyday lives, caught up in irrelevant things.
But question, if all of this was stripped away from you, who would you be? Disconnect yourself from your every day life, from your problems and from your families and friends and figure out exactly what it is in your life that you want, figure out exactly who it is that you are.

 This life is so short and it scares the shit out of me everyday. Say exactly what you are thinking, explain what you feel and deal with the consequences when they matter instead of wondering what if. The people that have never left are all that should matter. This world can be so ugly, so you need to make it exactly what you want it to be. If there was anything that I learnt through my travels it was that you have to be the person you want to be, do not let the opinions of other people sway your thought-making process, because at the end of the day, you are the only person that has to live with the decisions that you are making.

Act now, because within an instant it could be too late, and regret is the biggest debt a person could ever have.

 I've missed this blog immensley, I'm glad to be back ♥