Reflection

1 - Your best friend.

Olivia and Claire, I couldn't split the two. There isn't anything I can't tell them and I do not know where I would be if it was not for the constant presence of these two in my life.

2 - Your crush/lover.

My love, Benjamin ♥. I know that I whine and moan and complain, I throw throw tantrums and sometimes we drive each other completely insane, but I wouldn't change it for anything because there is not a night when I don't go to bed thinking about how much I love him, nor is there a morning I like saying goodbye to him. He pulled me from a pretty dark place and has put up with so much of my drama and I have no doubt that I have become a better person since he has been in my life.   

3 - Your parents.

The only reason that I have any faith in the concept of marriage. Two wonderful people who have always made everything work out in the best possible way for my brother and myself. If I ever make half the parents that they have been to me I will rest happily.

4 - Your sibling/closest relative.
My big brother: Couldn't have asked for a better brother, he has never failed to be there for me at any time of my life!

5 - Your dreams.
I have two;

1. Buy an apartment in New York ( perhaps Tribecca) and renovate it. I'd like to rent it out for 9 months of the year and live there for 3 months. 

2. The pursuit of happiness, which I suppose is everyone's ultimate dream, but it's getting really close and I think that I am finally beginning to sort out what it is that I want. 

6 - A stranger
Will only be a stranger as long as you let them. 

7 - An ex boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush.

Ex: It took me a long, long time to let you go. For a while, I didn't think I would ever get over you, but I was granted with the grace I needed and let you go. It's easy in hindsight, but I don't know why I believed in you for such a long time. And comparing it to what I have now, well no boy has ever made me this happy. 

8 - Your favourite internet friend.
Andrew H! He is a real life friend too, but he chats to me every time I sign in and lets me spill my heart all out and provides me with advice where possible! Such a great friend.

9 - Someone you wish you could meet.
I still want to know who I am going to marry, just think it would be a helpful thing to know!

10 - Someone you don't talk to as much as you'd like to.
My family, as much as I love them dearly I have made such a poor effort in keeping in contact with them! This year I am hoping to make a much greater effort in keeping in touch.

11 - A deceased person you wish you could talk to.
My dearest uncle Bill, who I hope is resting easy. The most bold and wild person I have ever met, there was never a dull moment with you around. We miss you every day you spark, taken far, far too early.

12 - The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain.
He knows exactly who it is, and I have nothing further to say about it. 

13 - Someone you wish could forgive you.
I am not seeking forgiveness.

14 - Someone you've drifted away from.
If I wrote a list of every person I have drifted from, my blog would have five new pages. Drifting is inevitable.

15 - The person you miss the most.
At this very moment? That would be my boyfriend, who went away this morning! He will be back on Sunday, but I could swear to God that sleeping alone has never been this cold. 

 16 - Someone that's not in your state/country.
Olivia! Cambodia has stolen my best friend!

17 - Someone from your childhood.
Shannon, grew up with her from 1st grade, such a significant part of my childhood.

18 - The person you wish you could be.

Independent, like I once was.

19 - Someone that pesters your mind - good or bad.
Ben, who is seemingly a part of everything I do these days.

20 - The one that your heart the hardest.
The one that was hardest on my heart? This one ♥

21 - Someone you judged by their first impression.
Everyone I have ever met.

22 - Someone you want to give a second chance to.
I gave out a pretty big second chance this week, and I'm not sure how I feel about it right now, so I'm holding off on second chances the time being.

23 - The last person you kissed.
My lovely boyfriend ♥ ♥ ♥ I love his kisses, but goodbye kisses are never my favourite.

24 - The person that gave you your favourite memory.
I have enough favourite memories to fill a book, I could never pinpoint it to one.

25 - Someone that changed your life.
Benjamin. I am a different person for having him in my life and I love every minute I spend with this boy even though I don't always say it. We have our ups and downs, but I don't doubt that we will be one of the greatest things I've ever known. I have become such a different person for just having known him in ways that I cannot yet explain.