Melt my heart

The world was on fire and no one could save me but you.
It's strange what desire will make foolish people do. 
I never dreamed that I'd meet somebody like you.
And I never dreamed that I'd lose somebody like you. 

Forever Perfect

"You said, ain't this just like the present,
To be showing up like this?
As the moon waned to crescent
We started to kiss.
And I said I know it well,
The secret that we know that we don't know how to tell"

Blood Bank, Bon Iver.
Forever explaining my feelings through lyric.

This is love

Lady, running down to the riptide
Taken away to the dark side
I wanna be your left hand man
I love you when you're singing that song and
I got a lump in my throat because 
You're going to sing the words wrong. 

There's this movie that I think you'll like
This guy decides to quit his job and head to New York City
This cowboy's running from himself
and she's been living on the highest shelf. 

Vance Joy - Riptide (Acoustic)

Que Sera Sera

Sometimes, no matter how hard you try, things don't work out the way you had planned them.

Change

It's 3:07 in the morning and I'm sitting in the bathroom light of my studio apartment in Hollywood, as I have done the last few nights, unable to seep. California is so enchanting and so disconcerting at the same time. In half an hour, I will be heading back to the airport for another three flights until I reach my new home on the East Coast and hopefully fall back into a more regular sleeping pattern.

I thought it would be so much harder to leave home, until I left, then it was one of the easiest things in the world to do. Here is the thing, I live in constant fear of losing the people I love, but travelling/leaving has this uncanny ability to show you the people who really care and what really matters. I'm talking about the people who will answer your phone calls despite the time difference, who have sent me letters and who are scared to loose me just as equally as I am of them.  There are no false pretences and it becomes really clear who and what matters all of a sudden.
So just quickly before I miss my taxi call, I want to say thank you to the people in my life I don't have to worry about losing, the ones who are always there for me and have held my hand and supported me in this entire journey I have embarked on. I could not be more blessed than I am, having such compassionate and caring people in my life. The love I have for you is infinite and I don't fear it ever running out.
X

It's moving day!

Stay tuned bloggerbees :)

Happy.

"I hope one day you buy every pretty dress you've ever wanted. I hope you wear them and dance barefoot in summer and laugh. I hope you smile at all of the little things, like flowers and the laughter of children. I hope you get that tattoo you've always wanted. I hope you learn to speak French fluently. I hope you go to Paris and every single state in the US. I hope you never stop singing, even when people tell you that you can't - in fact, especially then. That's when I hope you'll sing the loudest. I hope you buy a bracelet everywhere you go, until your whole arm is filled with them. I hope you stop beating yourself up about everything that's out of your control. I hope you have the guts to speak up when something is important to you. I hope you step out of your comfort zone. I hope you fall insanely in love with someone unexpected. I hope you forget about your scars - inside and out - and learn to be happy"

Running

"I'm terrified of the dark, but not if you go with me. I don't need a pill to make me numb. And I wrote the book on running, but that chapter of my life will soon be done, I'm the king of the great escape"

August, the 4th.

It is so peculiar to think that this night four years ago, you changed my life, my whole perspective on the world and the way that I would go on in the future. Even now, years on, I still remember every single thing about that day and all those that followed, right up to this very moment.
There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of you and feel so blessed to have experienced all that we have together. Despite everything that has now fallen between us, people, kilometres and happenstance, there will always be one constant. And that is the overwhelming amount of unconditional love I have for you. Do not get me wrong, there are days when I downright hate you and despise a lot of the decisions you make, but you have also stood by me through some pretty tricky times and tried your best to be the graceful man that I fell in love with, so serene and full of compassion. Thank you for being both my albatross and my lighthouse, saving me when I didn't realise I was drowning and providing me with guidance when I was so lost. I know it wasn't always smooth-sailing, but you are both the strongest and weakest person I know, so beautiful and strong.  I hope nothing in this world ever takes away your shine.
The last four years have truly been a rollercoaster, but there isn't a day I wouldn't relive with you. I am so happy that we are still in each other's lives, even if it is not the way we had fathomed. I love you so god damn much and I wouldn't trade you for anything, kid.
♥ ♥ ♥