Independence

For the first time in a long time I have taken some time out to learn to stand on my own two feet once again.

I have grown up a lot in the last two weeks. In the varying absences of my usual go-to people, I had to learn how to deal with things on my own again. It was once I was alone that it dawned on me; for so long now I have depended on one person or another to pick up my emotional pieces and glue me back together after every drama that would worm itself into the middle of my life. I've merely gone from one person to the next, counting on them to hold me together when I can't. So in these two weeks of almost sheer isolation, I was given time to figure out what primarily matters to me and gave myself a major opportunity to see the standpoint I hold in the lives of various people.

No longer do I want to find myself depending on other people because I have learnt firsthand just how much it hurts each time one of these people inevitably leaves and in return I am now learning to depend on myself again, a skill I had once mastered but have since forgotten.
Instead of moving from one person to the next, I will rely on myself, and myself only to hold it together.

I haven't had to stand on my own two feet for a considerably long time and it's about time I put them to good use once again.