Today I kinda realised how much my life has changed for the very first time. I had a minor set back in my happiness when I saw my ex's somewhat declaration of love for some recent unknown, but the only thing I wanted to do was go for a run. I didn't want to go cry into his arms, or the arms of someone else and wallow in my self pity, nor did I want to gorge on a bunch of foods that I knew I'd immediately feel guilty for. I just wanted to run, because I know when I run, it's a pain I can control, a pain that I know has so much goodness on the other side. Either way, the sadness I felt was nothing compared to what it once was, because now I look at my family, and my best friends... I look at how constant and considerate they are, which in all reality, is all that I really need. I do pity him, and his messed up, newly established relationships and although I miss him to levels that are too much to bare at times, I know that without him, I am so much better.
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