Staring at this page I'm trying to avoid thinking of all these questions that I want to ask you and instead I think what I need to do is begin to question myself.
This begins a trend that I have previously been oblivious to. Instad of blaming you for everything you did to me, I should be blaming myself for giving you the opportunity to hurt me. Instead of being mad at you for the things I lost or risked losing for you, I should be angry at myself for believing you were worth jeoprodising them for. Instead of being frustrated with you for lieing to me everyday, I should instead be frustrated with myself for allowing myself to believe you had a shred of decency left within you.
Instead of felling hurt, embarressed, empty, broken, ashamed and betrayed for all the various things you've done to me, I should be infuriated at myself for coming back to you each time.
Instead of felling hurt, embarressed, empty, broken, ashamed and betrayed for all the various things you've done to me, I should be infuriated at myself for coming back to you each time.
For the first time in a long time, I am taking responsibility.
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