"You meet thousands of people, & then you meet one person & your life is changed.. Forever"

They say you never really know what you have until it is gone, and I guess, sterotypically, that it is true. But a lot of things could be sterotypically true about us. The thing is though, you aren't gone -  just distant. I love you, and i know you think that I am only saying this to keep you. But that is so far from the truth. I second guess myself a lot you know, probably a lot more than you realise, but I never second guessed this. Once I had decided that it was what I wanted, I put everything I had into keeping you. I'm not going to sit here and try to define love and tell you exactly what this feeling is, because I simply do not have those words. However I will tell you that you never saw my faults as a bad thing, you saw the good in me and made me begin to see it also. You helped me realise a lot of things, not even solely about myself, but including you too, like the fact that when you said you were home I didn't believe you, because for me, home was in your arms, and I'd only wished you had felt the same. So when you said you were home, but my arms were empty, well that never made sense to me.
There are a lot of smaller things that make up love I think, which is why i think each time is different and unforgetable, people bring different things to the table. But if I had to list 100 things that I think equate to love, just know that you would be in every last one of them.
 
I sit here second guessing myself, like i previously mentioned. I don't want you to do this because you feel like you owe it to me, or your scared that I'm going to rebel. I just want you to have half of this amazing feeling that I have.
 
Gary once said to me that he knew his soulmate. They weren't together, they were just friends, but they had a friendship that you couldn't quite put your finger on, you couldn't break it and you surely couldn't understand it. You know, if you make your decision and i'm not it, I think we could get that friendship, if we worked real hard.
 
I know you think I love you because i'm not threatened by it anymore, but you have no idea just how threatening this is. Someone once asked me what is harder, telling someone you love them, or telling someone you dont. I have my answer now.