It's not who you think you are that holds you back, its who you think your not.

For a long time I tried to be everything you needed me to be, everything you all needed me to be because I was scared of the consequences may be otherwise. I was afraid to be alone and I let my fear lead me to become a stranger to myself. I was blindsided by the sweet nothings that I believed I couldn't be without and was willing to sacrifice myself in order for short-term happiness. My Gran, the most intuitive woman I have ever known, once told that I had to plant my own garden and decorate my soul instead of waiting for someone else to bring me flowers and it would be a great discredit to a wonderfully wise woman if I chose to ignore some of the most perspicacious words I've ever heard. And so I ask silently for the grace and balance that I need to overcome this and move forward to the person I promised myself to be. 

I said that I was afraid to be alone, it is still my very biggest fear but sometimes you have to stand alone, to make sure than you still can.