I am so lost.

Jumble

My favourite time is lying with you in the dark, when I can whisper all the things I am afraid to say in the daylight. Darkness always held the ability to blanket all that I've been afraid of.  I guess I just feel like I need to make my chest a little bit lighter before I sleep. I've done many things that I wouldn't advocate, but you make me feel better, make me believe that sometimes things are only as bad as you believe them to be. I'm pouring myself out to you, all the things that I've wanted to hide. I think I was lost, maybe I still am, but you've found me and now I feel everything spilling out of my mouth before I even have a chance to close it. But every night, you are still there, listening to these words that don't usually make that much sense at all. 
  
Besides, don't you hate it? Not ever saying how you really feel. 

I am happy to be here

I have to remind myself that sometimes, it's so easy to forget - When the words tell me to fuck off and people get me all bent out of shape and I can't help but get hung up on mundane things that break my heart - I'm happy to be here. And when the sun set and we were blanketed by the darkness, I couldn't help but wonder about when I sincerely saw you for the first time. Begging myself to never quit trying to be something better than what I am at this moment, to never stop trying to build something important, even when my hands get dirty and start to shake from the weight of everything I've ever tried to hold in this place.

How I feel almost every day

Life goes on

Crying is alright in it's own way while it lasts. But you have to stop sooner or later, and then you still have to decide what to do.

-C.S Lewis

One of the all time favourites

"What's the point in this armour if it keeps away the love too? 

I'd rather bleed with cuts of love then live without any scars"

-Alecia Moore

KONY 2012

I do not know how many of you will view this and I do not know how many of you will care even if you do view this. But what I do know, is that we all hold the power to create change. Each one of us individuals can impact this world, and in particular, this cause if we set our minds to it.

It's time to listen to this video, and I personally promise that it will be worth every second of your time.

Even if only one person watches it and shares it again, that will be one more audience that it has reached.
Ghandi once said that we must be the change that we want to see in the world. So be the change, and make the difference that needs to be made, every share counts.

Peace

"I'd rather learn from one bird how to sing, than teach ten thousand stars how not to dance"
-E.E Cummings

I am so incredibly in love with you.

You are the single greatest thing that ever ran into me and changed my life forever. I do not tell you nearly enough how crazy I am about you. From the way you make me laugh every day and warn me about floods when I cry, to the way you drape your arm across me despite how exhausted you are just so I can fall asleep knowing you are right beside me. The way I say I am going home when I don't even live there nor do I plan to, but it is where you are - and that's what you feel like; home. I love the way you tell me stories when I ask for them because my head is too full to think anymore and I love the way your eyes light up when you talk about something you care about so deeply. You are the very best thing I have and I know there is so much for us to figure out, but I cannot wait to sort out every last tangle with you for as long as you will let me. 

I know I get angry sometimes and I stare at that stupid blank wall, expecting all of the answers to tumble out of it, but then you whisper "come here" and those answers don't matter anymore. You matter. And I will fight all of the anger and all the questions in the world just to be happy with you. And I am going to keep fighting for the best of everything for us, and I will be there for the worst, but I am certain you already know this. 

I cannot wait to explore every corner of this world with you and create the very best life for us. 

It's scarce for something so absolutely perfect to happen these days and I have recently realised just how lucky I am to have been granted someone so amazing. And you should be proud, I am not so afraid anymore, and I am not waiting for something bad to happen. For the first time, you have given me something I could never have asked for; you have give me the faith in believing that this was meant to be. 

I am so incredibly in love with you.