Questions

To a certain extent, I find myself questioning all the things that could have happened to me, had you not.
I wonder if I would have pursued the other half of the equation more thoroughly. I wonder what thoughts would constantly fill my head that is now so continuously consumed by you now. I think about all the experiences I jeoprodised in order to make things work with you for a while, and how I'll never get those back. I think about the person who could have been my first love in replacement of you, and the person who could have broken my heart. I wonder if anyone will ever hurt me as much as you did. I question whether anyone will ever get as close to me as you did. I wonder if anyone will ever fill the massive gap you've left with me. I question everyone's ability to ever understand me the way you do.

I question myself; what was it that made me change my morals, my beliefs and values to belong with you and extend what we had that little stretch more each time.
Most of all find myself questioning you, and exactly what it is about you that would make me do all of this all over again despite everything you did to me.