I convinced myself that I'd go into this head strong. I didn't want to get caught up in something when everything is so close to finishing.
But here we are, and we drive down that highway and your face shines under every street light and I'm singing at the top of my lungs and you just sit there smiling. And as every mile goes by, I'm falling more and more for you.
Friday, June 21, 2013
Tuesday, June 18, 2013
30 - Finito
Day 30 - What are you most looking forward to?
I cannot wait to move. It is getting closer and closer and I am already feeling the heaviness hanging over me of saying goodbye to some of the loveliest and darling people that this world has to offer, but I couldn't be more excited to start fresh and take a break from hometown dramas.
To my followers, thank you for reading 30 days worth of significant pointless points and poor writing.
I cannot wait to move. It is getting closer and closer and I am already feeling the heaviness hanging over me of saying goodbye to some of the loveliest and darling people that this world has to offer, but I couldn't be more excited to start fresh and take a break from hometown dramas.
To my followers, thank you for reading 30 days worth of significant pointless points and poor writing.
Monday, June 17, 2013
The Great Gatsby
Today, I saw The Great Gatsby. I was hesitant to see the film as I love the book so much, but I have to say the majority of the film was absolutely flawless. The scene, the music and the acting was impossibly perfect, however the love detailed within the narrative could never be adequately captured in a film without the vastness of the words of F. Scott Fitzgerald.
If you have seen the movie, do so.
If you haven't read the book, you must.
If you have seen the movie, do so.
If you haven't read the book, you must.
"Gatsby believed in the green light, the orgastic future that year by year recedes before us. It eluded us then, but that's no matter - tomorrow we will run faster, stretch out our arms farther...
So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past"
So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past"
-F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby
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Day 29 - Your favourite song and why?
I've written before what Bon Iver means to me, but it all started back in 2007 when I first heard this beautifully broken song. Over the last few years, there has been countless covers of this song as Bon Iver has grown more popular, but none have even come remotely close to capturing the raw emotion that Justin Vernon envelops in his song.
Enjoy,
I've written before what Bon Iver means to me, but it all started back in 2007 when I first heard this beautifully broken song. Over the last few years, there has been countless covers of this song as Bon Iver has grown more popular, but none have even come remotely close to capturing the raw emotion that Justin Vernon envelops in his song.
Enjoy,
Sunday, June 16, 2013
28
Day 28: Something you worry about a lot:
To be completely honest, I don't worry about anything a lot. The way I look at it, if you are worried about something you should fix it. And if you can't fix it, what's the point in worrying about it?
This life is far too short to waste time worrying :)
Be happy ♥
Saturday, June 15, 2013
Nostalgia in it's finest form.
For Krish,
I remember everything about you so clearly, even though it all began years ago, even when you asked me this morning like there was a possibility that I could have forgotten what we shared. Constantly, you tell me that you need me in your life forever and despite me reassuring you that I am not going anywhere, I wish I could say the same for you.
I replay the old original XX tunes and relive all of our old memories. I miss your warm skin and sitting on the couch staring at the Harbour bridge, fascinated by how truly beautiful this world is sometimes. How perfect moments like this could be, with you all entangled around me. I remember laughing at Shall's bad jokes and terrible directions. I would have sat on that couch with you for the rest of eternity had you asked me at the time. Like we always say, those were the best nights and mornings of our lives and you are someone who will always be nearest to my old blackened heart. As much as you drive me crazy, nothing could replace your random "I love you" texts, your voice or your unbelievably sweet words. I can not string the words together to convey how much I am going to miss you when I move, but that's life and I know you'll never be far away if I need you.
As happy as I am, I'd be lying if I said I wish it had turned out this way.
I remember everything about you so clearly, even though it all began years ago, even when you asked me this morning like there was a possibility that I could have forgotten what we shared. Constantly, you tell me that you need me in your life forever and despite me reassuring you that I am not going anywhere, I wish I could say the same for you.
I replay the old original XX tunes and relive all of our old memories. I miss your warm skin and sitting on the couch staring at the Harbour bridge, fascinated by how truly beautiful this world is sometimes. How perfect moments like this could be, with you all entangled around me. I remember laughing at Shall's bad jokes and terrible directions. I would have sat on that couch with you for the rest of eternity had you asked me at the time. Like we always say, those were the best nights and mornings of our lives and you are someone who will always be nearest to my old blackened heart. As much as you drive me crazy, nothing could replace your random "I love you" texts, your voice or your unbelievably sweet words. I can not string the words together to convey how much I am going to miss you when I move, but that's life and I know you'll never be far away if I need you.
As happy as I am, I'd be lying if I said I wish it had turned out this way.
Perfecto.
"If you love someone, you tell them. Even if you're scared that it's not the right thing. Even if you're scared that it'll cause problems. Even if you're scared that it will burn your life to the ground, you say it, and you say it loud and you go from there"
-Mark Sloan, Grey's Anatomy.
Twenty-seven
Day 27 - Something you feel strongly about:
Equality. Whether its between women and men, race and religion or gay rights, I believe we are all humans, born exactly the same with acute differences that are no excuse to be treated unequal to the person next to you.
I ask you, should gay marriage become legalised, what would happen? The world would continue to turn, you would continue to work your job and continue to still be an asshole on Saturday morning after too many drinks the night before. Bottom line is that your life wouldn't change at all. However, the life of gay couples would significantly improve. Not only could they be joined in legal matrimony, they would have the same rights if their spouse was to pass away, the same rights to raise children and the same rights that everyone else takes for granted in their 47 day marriages.
This world needs more love. Lets stop drawing lines between who should and should not be able to do things and give everyone the same choices.
Let live.
Equality. Whether its between women and men, race and religion or gay rights, I believe we are all humans, born exactly the same with acute differences that are no excuse to be treated unequal to the person next to you.
I ask you, should gay marriage become legalised, what would happen? The world would continue to turn, you would continue to work your job and continue to still be an asshole on Saturday morning after too many drinks the night before. Bottom line is that your life wouldn't change at all. However, the life of gay couples would significantly improve. Not only could they be joined in legal matrimony, they would have the same rights if their spouse was to pass away, the same rights to raise children and the same rights that everyone else takes for granted in their 47 day marriages.
This world needs more love. Lets stop drawing lines between who should and should not be able to do things and give everyone the same choices.
Let live.
Friday, June 14, 2013
Almost over!
Day 26 - What happened today?
Well this morning I worked, which was average at best. However tonight James and I are going to one of my favourite little rooftop terrace bars in Newtown, Sydney, to celebrate the end of the exam period for uni. Fingers crossed for another semester successfully completed. Can't wait :)
Well this morning I worked, which was average at best. However tonight James and I are going to one of my favourite little rooftop terrace bars in Newtown, Sydney, to celebrate the end of the exam period for uni. Fingers crossed for another semester successfully completed. Can't wait :)
Thursday, June 13, 2013
A little love letter, a lot late.
I went to your old house today and was instantly flooded of reminders of what once was. It is the place we were sitting when I told you I knew that my life would never be the same again, and how right I was. Now little children play on the porch where we would curl in the sun, the porch when I'd scream at you and tell you I'd never come back, the porch that I'd stand on when you opened the door and your smile took my breath away every time. In retrospect, I think of all the love you gave me and how rarely I told what it meant to me. As much as we both screwed up, I will always love you wholeheartedly and I want you to know how much I appreciate you for always giving me someone to run back to on the darkest of days when I least deserved it.
Even though everything has changed and our worlds no longer intertwine flawlessly as they once did, I will never forget the elevator kisses, sharing belly laughs at 3am, lying together on the floor in the sun all day and driving for hours to find places where we could be ourselves. You were some of my very best days and a large percentage of my favourite memories. Thank you for being so wonderful to me when I needed it the most. I am so immensely thankful that I got to share what I did with you.
Love,
Fearless with skinny wrists.
Even though everything has changed and our worlds no longer intertwine flawlessly as they once did, I will never forget the elevator kisses, sharing belly laughs at 3am, lying together on the floor in the sun all day and driving for hours to find places where we could be ourselves. You were some of my very best days and a large percentage of my favourite memories. Thank you for being so wonderful to me when I needed it the most. I am so immensely thankful that I got to share what I did with you.
Love,
Fearless with skinny wrists.
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Day 25 - Five things from your wishlist.
1. Buy an apartment in New York City - Nothing I'd love more in life than to be able to come and go from a little NYC studio as I please.
2. Adopt children in need - I strongly believe that personally I shouldn't bring more children into the world until those suffering from starvation/illness/abuse are adequately looked after.
3. Marry my best friend - I never really aspired to get married, but lately it's been something on my mind. Way further down the track, I would love to marry someone who I can speak to, who can make me laugh and who I respect. These are the most important things to me.
4. Continue overcoming my wonderlust - Over the last couple of years, I have travelled to 18 countries. Nothing in this world makes me happier than exploring new cultures, meeting new people and sharing conversations in broken languages with people I'll never forget. For all the years to come, I hope I keep up this habit and remain fortunate enough to be able to continue to fund this expensive hobby.
5. Get a job I really love - I want to make sure that when I really start my career that it is something that I really love, like helping children, or researching or writing. I want to feel fulfilment everyday and not feel as though I am wasting this life.
1. Buy an apartment in New York City - Nothing I'd love more in life than to be able to come and go from a little NYC studio as I please.
2. Adopt children in need - I strongly believe that personally I shouldn't bring more children into the world until those suffering from starvation/illness/abuse are adequately looked after.
3. Marry my best friend - I never really aspired to get married, but lately it's been something on my mind. Way further down the track, I would love to marry someone who I can speak to, who can make me laugh and who I respect. These are the most important things to me.
4. Continue overcoming my wonderlust - Over the last couple of years, I have travelled to 18 countries. Nothing in this world makes me happier than exploring new cultures, meeting new people and sharing conversations in broken languages with people I'll never forget. For all the years to come, I hope I keep up this habit and remain fortunate enough to be able to continue to fund this expensive hobby.
5. Get a job I really love - I want to make sure that when I really start my career that it is something that I really love, like helping children, or researching or writing. I want to feel fulfilment everyday and not feel as though I am wasting this life.
Wednesday, June 12, 2013
24
Day 24 - If you could live anywhere, where would it be?
Anyone at all who knows me could answer this question. Of course it is the fabulous city of New York, my temporary home that forever holds my heart.
Anyone at all who knows me could answer this question. Of course it is the fabulous city of New York, my temporary home that forever holds my heart.
Tuesday, June 11, 2013
Flawless
Marry your best friend. I do not say that lightly. Really, truly find the strongest, happiest friendship in the person you fall in love with. Someone who speaks highly of you. Someone you can laugh with. The kind of laughs that make your belly ache and your nose snort. The embarrassing, earnest, healing kind of laughs. Wit is important. Life is too short not to love someone who lets you be a fool with them. Make sure they are somebody who lets you cry too. Despair will come. Find someone that you want to be there with you through those times. Most importantly, marry the one that makes passion, love and madness combine and course through you. A love that will never dilute - even when the waters get deep and dark.
Perfect ♥
Perfect ♥
23.
Day 23 - Initials of people you've been in love with.
JR & BC.
Many people have come and gone in my life, a lot of whom I have immense amount of love for but have not been in love with. But there are two who stick out in my life. They know who they are.
JR & BC.
Many people have come and gone in my life, a lot of whom I have immense amount of love for but have not been in love with. But there are two who stick out in my life. They know who they are.
Monday, June 10, 2013
Moving day is looming.
The leaves fall between us like all the words left unsaid. I always have trouble deciphering between reality and all of the things we wish to be. There is something so fragile about the memories we are creating, knowing the heavy pretence that hangs over our heads, gloomy and dark. You want to live life in the light but I am happy exploring these shadows, overturning every dark and beautiful gutter that the world has to offer.
I am so full of hope for the future and you are barely at arms length. Even though we will be on opposite sides of the world for the next few years, nothing will change. I have always been a dreamer, believing that people are beautiful, underneath their cracked souls and beautiful scars. You just have to be willing to dig a little deeper than before. Please don't give up just yet. You can only live in a dream if you give yourself the chance. As for me, you will always know where to find me, crawling in the dark corners of foreign cities with people who are a little too tired of this world, sharing some light.
I am so full of hope for the future and you are barely at arms length. Even though we will be on opposite sides of the world for the next few years, nothing will change. I have always been a dreamer, believing that people are beautiful, underneath their cracked souls and beautiful scars. You just have to be willing to dig a little deeper than before. Please don't give up just yet. You can only live in a dream if you give yourself the chance. As for me, you will always know where to find me, crawling in the dark corners of foreign cities with people who are a little too tired of this world, sharing some light.
I don't know about you, but I'm feeling 22
Day 22 - A song you listen to before you go out?
There isn't really a specific song I listen to before I go out, it purely depends on my mood. I have over 500 cd's and records, so there is always a bit of a mix. Usually sometimes with a strong beat like Jamie XX. Here's a sample
Enjoy!
There isn't really a specific song I listen to before I go out, it purely depends on my mood. I have over 500 cd's and records, so there is always a bit of a mix. Usually sometimes with a strong beat like Jamie XX. Here's a sample
Enjoy!
Sunday, June 9, 2013
Three whole weeks.
Day 21 - What was the last movie you watched? Write about it.
Currently watching The Virgin Suicides.
It's an old favourite. If you haven't seen it do so. Any movie that has the tagline 'Love Sex Passion Fear Obsession' has to be amazing, right?
Currently watching The Virgin Suicides.
It's an old favourite. If you haven't seen it do so. Any movie that has the tagline 'Love Sex Passion Fear Obsession' has to be amazing, right?
Saturday, June 8, 2013
20
Day 20 - What have you learnt in the past month?
In the last month, I have learnt that people will only take advantage of you if you give them the opportunity.
I have also learnt that some 'friends' will betray to gain whatever it is they need.
I learnt that giving up is not a sign of weakness, but in fact one of the hardest things to do in this life.
I learnt that just because people don't love you the way you want them to, does not mean they don't love you in the very best way that they can.
Foremostly, I learnt that there is nothing that tea, Bon Iver and beautiful friends cannot fix.
In the last month, I have learnt that people will only take advantage of you if you give them the opportunity.
I have also learnt that some 'friends' will betray to gain whatever it is they need.
I learnt that giving up is not a sign of weakness, but in fact one of the hardest things to do in this life.
I learnt that just because people don't love you the way you want them to, does not mean they don't love you in the very best way that they can.
Foremostly, I learnt that there is nothing that tea, Bon Iver and beautiful friends cannot fix.
My Kind of Love
I know sometimes I get angry and I say what I don't mean
I know I keep my heart protected far away from my sleeve,
But don't ever question that my heart beats only for you.
It beats only for you.
Because when you've given up,
When no matter what you do it's never good enough
When you never thought that it could ever get this tough
That's when you'll feel my kind of love.
Beautiful woman!
Happy.
I am not a princess by any means, but it is awfully nice to have someone around who opens doors for me and takes me to cute cafes in the mountains for tea at 9pm on Friday night. It is nice to have someone take me to my favourite spots in the darkest corners of Sydney and it is really nice to just talk, really talk, to someone.
I don't know when I was last this happy or satisfied in the company of someone just being. There is no need for false impressions or multi-personas because you are the loveliest person I know.
You put up with my foul-mouthed rants, my crazy antics and my wicked indecisiveness without saying a word and I couldn't begin to tell you what that means.
I love this immense happiness that you have brought into my life.
I don't know when I was last this happy or satisfied in the company of someone just being. There is no need for false impressions or multi-personas because you are the loveliest person I know.
You put up with my foul-mouthed rants, my crazy antics and my wicked indecisiveness without saying a word and I couldn't begin to tell you what that means.
I love this immense happiness that you have brought into my life.
Friday, June 7, 2013
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Day 19 - Who is your favourite singer/band and why?
Bon Iver. There are not many moments in life that you can point to and say "That is when it all changed". But for me, Bon Iver was one of them, back in his lonely days in early 2009, before all the covers and before anyone really knew him. Back when his videos has less than 200 views and there were a tiny little cult of us Bon Iver lovers.
I care not to explain what I was doing, but the way it made me feel. It was the first time I felt like there was more to this life than my direct surroundings. More people to meet, things to see and adventures to be had. In this moment, I was given hope and everything changed for me.
My love for you, your story and your music is infinite, you brilliant, brillian man ♥
Bon Iver. There are not many moments in life that you can point to and say "That is when it all changed". But for me, Bon Iver was one of them, back in his lonely days in early 2009, before all the covers and before anyone really knew him. Back when his videos has less than 200 views and there were a tiny little cult of us Bon Iver lovers.
I care not to explain what I was doing, but the way it made me feel. It was the first time I felt like there was more to this life than my direct surroundings. More people to meet, things to see and adventures to be had. In this moment, I was given hope and everything changed for me.
My love for you, your story and your music is infinite, you brilliant, brillian man ♥
Thursday, June 6, 2013
18
Day 18 - Who is your favourite actress:
This beautiful woman is my favourite actress. To be honest, she is actually my number 1 girl crush and probably the only person I'd turn for. Such a lively soul who has never taken herself too seriously and look what she has achieved. Her work on the film Silver Linings Playbook is incomparable to that of any other. She tells stellar jokes and has to be one of the most flawlessly gorgeous people. It's also a minor plus that her on-screen partner is Bradley Cooper for three films running now!. At only 22, she has achieved so much. A poster girl for following your dreams and being real.
Wednesday, June 5, 2013
Priceless Advice
If you're laying in bed
wrapped up in sheets
of miserable thoughts
go to sleep.
If thumbing through old messages
only causes your heart to ache
and long for something attainable
erase them.
If it hurts to keep
everything you're feeling
bottled up inside
let it out.
If you're clinging to someone
that doesn't treat you like
you're worth the world
let them go.
Because sometimes
we choose to believe
that things are only
indistinguishable shades of grey
when in reality,
life is more black and white
than it seems.
If you unhappy
with the way
you are living your life
change it.
-MG
wrapped up in sheets
of miserable thoughts
go to sleep.
If thumbing through old messages
only causes your heart to ache
and long for something attainable
erase them.
If it hurts to keep
everything you're feeling
bottled up inside
let it out.
If you're clinging to someone
that doesn't treat you like
you're worth the world
let them go.
Because sometimes
we choose to believe
that things are only
indistinguishable shades of grey
when in reality,
life is more black and white
than it seems.
If you unhappy
with the way
you are living your life
change it.
-MG
Space required
Just because people don't share their problems with the rest of the world, doesn't mean they don't have them. Everyone has their own battles, no matter how significant, and everyone needs room to breathe.
17!
Day Seventeen - 5 things you look for in a partner/boyfriend/girlfriend:
1. Patience: I am constantly on an emotional rollercoaster and there is no point bringing anyone into my life that does not share the virtue of patience to not only deal with myself, but also the situations I will most likely get us into.
2. Trust & Respect: For me, the two go hand in hand. If I cannot trust you, I will not respect you. To be trustworthy is the ultimate requirement for me in a relationship. There is no point even trying to have a successful relationship if you cannot trust the one you are with.
3. Kindness: Nothing more heartmelting than a man who is kind and compassionate to those around him and isn't afraid to show it.
4. Passion: I get frustrated with people who have no passion or direction in life. I like to stay motivated and surround myself with like-minded people.
5. Affection: I am the golden retriever of human beings. I require affection and attention and search for people who are similar. That may be needy, but so be it.
1. Patience: I am constantly on an emotional rollercoaster and there is no point bringing anyone into my life that does not share the virtue of patience to not only deal with myself, but also the situations I will most likely get us into.
2. Trust & Respect: For me, the two go hand in hand. If I cannot trust you, I will not respect you. To be trustworthy is the ultimate requirement for me in a relationship. There is no point even trying to have a successful relationship if you cannot trust the one you are with.
3. Kindness: Nothing more heartmelting than a man who is kind and compassionate to those around him and isn't afraid to show it.
4. Passion: I get frustrated with people who have no passion or direction in life. I like to stay motivated and surround myself with like-minded people.
5. Affection: I am the golden retriever of human beings. I require affection and attention and search for people who are similar. That may be needy, but so be it.
Tuesday, June 4, 2013
16!
Day 16 - What is your stance on religion:
Each to their own. I believe in something, although I couldn't tell you exactly what it is, I do believe that there is a greater force out there. I don't, however, affiliate with a single religion. Religion is single-handedly responsible for the largest number of deaths and wars in this world, so until people learn to live in peace, I will continue to live without religion.
Monday, June 3, 2013
Half Way
Day 15 - What do you want to be when you grow up, why did you choose it?
Ultimately, I want to be an activist who fights for children's rights. At the moment I am studying social welfare and education of children aged 0-12 years and in a few years I plan to re-enter the social welfare sector for children. I chose to do this because there are so many defenseless, beautiful children in this world that don't have anyone to fight for them and have no idea of their value. Children are the most beautiful, pure things that this world has to offer and if I can protect even a few of them, I will rest happily.
Ultimately, I want to be an activist who fights for children's rights. At the moment I am studying social welfare and education of children aged 0-12 years and in a few years I plan to re-enter the social welfare sector for children. I chose to do this because there are so many defenseless, beautiful children in this world that don't have anyone to fight for them and have no idea of their value. Children are the most beautiful, pure things that this world has to offer and if I can protect even a few of them, I will rest happily.
Sunday, June 2, 2013
Lovely
There will be dozens of people who take your breath away, but the one who reminds you to breathe is the one you should keep. -C.P
Even though everything is different now, I am thankful that I am grounded and have a handful of beautiful people in my life that keep my feet planted firmly on the ground, but my dreams in the sky.
Even though everything is different now, I am thankful that I am grounded and have a handful of beautiful people in my life that keep my feet planted firmly on the ground, but my dreams in the sky.
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Day 14 - A habit you wish you didn't have:
I run from commitment all the time. I will move countries if it means saving myself from various forms of commitment. The entire notion makes me weak and nauseous. I have undoubtedly missed so many opportunities in my life due to my fear of commitment and I am trying my damnedest to overcome it, but the matter of it is that I am far to free-spirit to be tied down.
I run from commitment all the time. I will move countries if it means saving myself from various forms of commitment. The entire notion makes me weak and nauseous. I have undoubtedly missed so many opportunities in my life due to my fear of commitment and I am trying my damnedest to overcome it, but the matter of it is that I am far to free-spirit to be tied down.
Saturday, June 1, 2013
12 & 13.
Day 12 - What is your favourite book?
Oh so many, I could sit here for days rattling them off. Throughout majority of my teenage years, Looking for Alaska was my favourite book, so that will always be high up on my list. Along with a lot of classics like Gatsby and anything written by F. Scott Fitzgerald. I also have an enormous love for Eat, Pray, Love as you'll notice dozens of Elizabeth Gilbert quotes. P.S I Love You is also a favourite, the book is ten million times great than the movie.
In summary anything by:
John Green
F. Scott Fitzgerald
Elizabeth Gilbert
Nicolas Sparks
Jodi Picoult.
Can't choose one, sorry.
Day 13 - What are you looking forward to next month?
Next month will be one month till I move to NC, USA. I couldn't be more excited to watch the countdown dwindle away. Also have a few birthdays I am looking forward to and a couple of concerts :)
Oh so many, I could sit here for days rattling them off. Throughout majority of my teenage years, Looking for Alaska was my favourite book, so that will always be high up on my list. Along with a lot of classics like Gatsby and anything written by F. Scott Fitzgerald. I also have an enormous love for Eat, Pray, Love as you'll notice dozens of Elizabeth Gilbert quotes. P.S I Love You is also a favourite, the book is ten million times great than the movie.
In summary anything by:
John Green
F. Scott Fitzgerald
Elizabeth Gilbert
Nicolas Sparks
Jodi Picoult.
Can't choose one, sorry.
Day 13 - What are you looking forward to next month?
Next month will be one month till I move to NC, USA. I couldn't be more excited to watch the countdown dwindle away. Also have a few birthdays I am looking forward to and a couple of concerts :)
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