Day 1/10

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people.

JR: I miss you. I don't know why you couldn't wait a few hours for me after everything we went through. But I guess that sums up everything, I never really knew you, did I? I hate everything about this and I wish that I was a big enough person to not resent you for doing this.

SA: I'm scared to death when I let myself be with you. I worked so hard on not feeling, and when I'm with you it is all undone. I have given you the power to crush me, but when I'm with you, everything feels so different. I never knew how much it would rattle me, to have someone pinpoint me so well. I don't want to loose what I shouldn't have.

SA: I know I make you mad, but I refuse to spend my whole life apologizing to you. I'm trying to be understanding, but you are fucking everything up and no, I am not going to tell you it's alright because it is so far from alright. Yes, I hope you suffer the consequences of your actions on Saturday night and figure out that being a jerk is ugly and unattractive...to everyone. And stop calling me sexy, it's sleazy and gross.

OM: Sorry for bring the worst best friend in the world this year. I am so grateful for you and even though I have done millions to not deserve you, your heart has never left me side, I didn't know I could be so lucky.

CM: Long distance sucks. I miss you every day without fail. I've said it before, but thank you for keeping me afloat my little lifeboat. You are constantly saving me and I am unsure as to how I didn't sink before I was blessed with you.

AB: I still can't help but think you are making a huge mistake. But I'm okay with that, because as long as you are, you are off limits to my huge mistake. Sorry for being so incredibly selfish.

KF: You witnessed me at the darkest time in my life and I used you as a scratching post for my loneliness and lack of companionship, but I will never ever forgive you for taking advantage of me the way you did. You hurt me more than I could ever admit to tell you.

PF: You don't even know it, but you are one of the only people in the world that I'd drop everything for.

GB:You weren't in my life for long, and I know I should tell you more often, but I don't think I would have got through those months without you. Thank you, with all of my heart. I meant every word I said to you, and I thank you for still being there for me, even though you don't have to. You're one of the world's most brilliant men and you have touched so, so many lives.

HC: It's going go be okay, one day.


*Please note, they are two different SA's.