30 minutes.

Because I am so horribly unsteady and we saw how the last 30 day blogspot challenge went, I shall suffice for turning this one into thirty minutes, rather than days...answering all these questions very spontaneously without much thought.


Day 1 - Your best friend.
Clairebee and Olivia, neither first or last - however both wonderfully beautiful, caring people of whom I can't say I deserve. Whatever I did to get these two people in my life, I would do it over and over again.


Day 2 - Your crush/lover.
My crush: Entirely off-base. Couldn't have him even if I wanted him - for so many insane reasons. Sometimes I truly hate narrow-minded society and wish people were a bit more free spirited like myself.
My lover: Well the one whom I am (unfortunatly and not by choice) in love with, does not love me back and while I am indeed coming to terms with this, it doesn't help in the slightest that everytime there is a small mishap in his life he runs to me to be rescued and we always fall right back into step of where we used to be...


Day 3 - Your parents.
Two of the most diverse people I have met. For two people to be so different and still make it work for over 20 years, well it kind of restores my faith in humanity a little bit.


Day 4 - Your sibling/closest relative.
Sibling: Big brother, I love him with my whole heart, he is going to be there for me till my very last breath and there isn't much I could do to change this.
Closest Relative: My uncle Dean, through thick and thin, he pulls me through everything without even knowing it, he is the light of my life.


Day 5 - Your dreams.
In life, well to travel around the world. I'm doing it in 16 months with Clairebee. Photos and adventures will all be posted on this blog, so stay tuned.


Day 6 - A stranger
Is only a stranger if you let them be.


Day 7 - An ex boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush.
Ex boyfriend/love: Your beautiful smile and body warmth will continue to sweep me off my feet until the day I die. Although you hurt me like no one has ever hurt me in my life, there is this massive tolerance I have created for you. Even though you made me crumble up into nothingness, not a day goes that I am not thankful that I had you. You are my very best, and very worst memories.
Crush: I'm too impatient to wait around for much longer, but to scared to be honest with you because I saw what happened last time I went through this, and I'd rather keep you as what you are than not have you at all.
Girlfriend: N/A.

Day 8 - Your favourite internet friend.
Patrick F: He always manages to put a smile on my face this boy, his wit and sarcasm is enough to brighten any other day.


Day 9 - Someone you wish you could meet.
Hm, I really have no idea. My future husband could be fun, get all this nonsense over with.


Day 10 - Someone you don't talk to as much as you'd like to.
Olivia and Claire, my two best friends. Everything seemed a lot easier when they lived 10 minutes away, but this whole interstate moving, both of you, really isn't easy on me.


Dat 11 - A deceased person you wish you could talk to.
My grandmother. I miss her more than words could explain, such a beautiful, kind lady. I love you Gran ♥ Also, my Uncle who recently passed away. My heart lies with him, everything changed that day.


Day 12 - The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain.
I do not hate him, not one bit, but my ex. He caused me the most pain hands down with no competition. To the extent that one day we were talking about suicide, because my friend has recently given his life to it, so we were talking about it and my ex said to me "if you were to commit suicide, I wouldn't question it, I would know straight away it was my fault". At least he knew I guess.


Day 13 - Someone you wish could forgive you.
This is a trick question for me, because the person I seek forgiveness from the most, isn't yet aware of what I have done.


Day 14 - Someone you've drifted away from.
A lot of my friends since starting my new job, it goes part in parcel as they say.


Day 15 - The person you miss the most.
The person I used to be, can I say that...?


Day 16 - Someone that's not in your state/country.
Olivia!


Day 17 - Someone from your childhood.
Shannon, who was my childhood friend, from Kindergarten right through to high school. We wen't through so much together, it's a shame we parted really.


Day 18 - The person you wish you could be.The strong, independent person I was once, who didn't question her values and morals for anyones sake.


Day 19 - Someone that pesters your mind - good or bad.
JLR. Everyday, without fail. He seems to be somewhat connected to everything I do/think.


Day 20 - The one that your heart the hardest.
This doesn't make sense in the slighest. But the one that was hardest on my heart, I'm sure you can all figure that out for yourselves.


Day 21 - Someone you judged by their first impression.
Most people to be completely honest with you.


Day 22 - Someone you want to give a second chance to.
I gave too many second chances, it has made me look like a fool so now I am tending to steer clear of giving out second chances.


Day 23 - The last person you kissed.
Krish, a very sweet man, the problem is, he is very sweet to a lot of people. However, like a lot of men, his priorities need sorting, starting with the truth, because in the last 3 months that we've been doing this, I seem to have uncovered more lies that truth from your mouth. All the same, I was very must in lust with you.


Day 24 - The person that gave you your favourite memory.
I think I have a favourite memory with each individual, rather than a favourite memory overall. So you'd have to ask my favourite memory with certain particulars for this question to be of any use.


Day 25 - The person you know that is going through the worst of times.
Two weeks ago, it was me. It tends to vary, a lot of people in my life go through some really terrible stuff. At the moment my heart it lying with my friend Gary, who may not lead on that he's having a tough time, but I know it's there, I just want him to know I'm also here, for even though I have not known him long, he is such a beautiful man and I cherish his friendship in amounts unexplainable ♥


Day 26 - The last person you made a pinky promise to.
I do remember making one only a few days ago, but for the life of me can't remember who.


Day 27 - The friendliest person you knew for only one day.
When I'm clubbing in the city, everyone is friendly, and that's only for a few hours.


Day 28 - Someone that changed your life.
JLR. Since you entered my life nothing was the same. I look at my life in three periods. The time before you, the time with you, and the time after you. None of them link, I feel as though each of these periods are not connected, you gave me three different lifetimes. I didn't think that one person would ever affect my life so much. I would thank you for changing me, but I am still unsure as to whether I like the person I am becoming, so I will get back to you.

Day 29 - The person that you want to tell everything to, but too afraid to.
There is five people. Three of which are involved in the same story, although none of them realise. And the two others are much of a muchness, they are in my heart.

Day 30 - Your reflection in the mirror.
Scares me sometimes, when I cannot even recognise myself.