Quick Thoughts...

I wish I had fought harder to keep you.
I was proudest of myself when I was vegetarian.
I'm scared I'll never get over my first love, which begins a whole series of problems.

I have lost too many people in my short life.

I don't know who I am or want to be.
I don't know what I want anymore.
I don't know where I stand a lot of the time.
I don't know a lot of things.
I rarely get jealous, but those old couples who have been in love for 50+ years are the heart of my envy.
I didn't believe in love until I was with him.
I love the picture in this blog a lot.

I tend to blog because it releases a lot of things I bottle in my head.
I have been through more in the last twelve months than I've been through in the last 18 years.
I wouldn't recogonize myself if I met the me from last year.
I miss my innocence.
I miss my determination.
I miss my morals.
I miss a lot of things about myself.
I like my willingness to question socially accepted things.

I wish life was easier.
I wish it was August, September and October of last year.
I recognize that it was those three months that changed my life.
I wish I appreciated things as they were happening, not once they have passed.
I need to be honest, and realise that there are consequences to my actions.
I grew up too quickly.
I will never be the same person I once was.
I am undecided whether or not this is a good or bad thing.
I admit that 97% of these points are because of one person and one situation.
I am unsure how one person can have such a massive impact on another life.

I am so vulnerable, I have never been vulnerable until now.