Baby Steps.

I know what I want to say, but actually saying it, that's another matter all together, don't you think?


Here it goes:


I know we are friends, but I also know we have really great conversations and you are smart and you challenge me to be smarter. I know that you express yourself through your wise wit, which I love and you like science, and the fact that you are trying to make something of yourself makes me happy. You have this amazing personality and sometimes I'm afraid I mistake our friendship as a mere act of your general kindness. Also, I think you have ridicously amazing hair, which only makes you look a whole deal greater than you already do, which is something that I am not sure you if you are totally aware of. Either way, I like you, a lot, and I am very aware that I am no Ellen Page and I probably don't deserve someone that challenges me to be smarter and makes me want to make myself better, but I'd like to give it a go, because you make me happy in ways that I haven't felt in a while and I want to try and recipricate the feeling. I've been wanting to say this for a while, but I kind of like where we are, and I am more afraid of losing that than I am of gaining this. So whatever the outcome, I just want you to know that you're a pretty wonderful guy and I've really appreciated the smile that your lame jokes have put on my face lately. So what do you say, would you give it a go?


Now, all I need is a little confidence, the confidence I have seemed to have lost.